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THE SPACE BETWEEN MY HEAD AND MY HEART.

“WAS THERE SOMETHING OFF WITH YOUR SHOT DAY AND BLOODWORK THIS TIME AROUND?” MY DOCTOR ASKS, STARING QUIZZICALLY AT THE COMPUTER SCREEN.

My jaw clenches.

“Your numbers are quite high, when did you do your shot?” he asks again.

I start to sink into my chair, my legs feeling like lead. My shoulders curl in, I’m subconsciously attempting to get smaller. I suspected this; at our last appointment he was also concerned. We lowered my dose a little bit, I promised to eat more, gain some weight.

I FAILED.

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IS THERE A SECRET QUEER HANDSHAKE I DON'T KNOW ABOUT?

The Bahamas is the first place I’ve been in a long time where I wasn’t visibly out as trans. 

Yes, I was shirtless with top surgery scars, but as I said in my instagram post last week, I was really the only person concerned with those it seemed.  Instead I was just this guy, who had some sort of accident or surgery or something. Maybe a guy who got the very shitty luck of breast cancer who knows.  

But literally in a conversation with this amazing awesome Lesbian couple who was there on their honeymoon, they told me, “Oh I don’t know why, we just didn’t put two and two together, I didn’t know you were trans” 

THIS BLEW MY MIND

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WHAT DOES A FULL LIFE FEEL LIKE? OVERWHELM OF COURSE

The state of my “cloffice” (closet-office hybrid) is a direct match for the state on my inner world.

One look at my desk and you’ll know where in the scale of overwhelm/somethings going on, I am. Right now I’m at about an 7/10. My Cloffice is creeping up to an 8.

But before everyone freaks out and checks in on me, asking if I’m okay and how they can help, know that it’s not always bad to be high up there on the scale. Sometimes being at a 7, 8 or even 9 just means we are living a big, full sometimes stressful life. Because that’s how we grow. That’s how we change, that’s how we make our dreams come true.

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THE HARDEST PART // NOTES FROM THE POPE

THE VATICAN HAS ISSUED A STATEMENT REJECTING TRANS PEOPLE, SAYING THEY ‘ANNIHILATE…THE CONCEPT OF NATURE’.

It seems like religious organizations are being asked to make new ways of being in the world to match the global climate, to realize maybe they’d been wrong about the queers all those years ago, like they were wrong about many many things over the years.

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